Turn On. Tune In.

There are many people who are born with their psychic radar switched on.  In fact, most psychics that I have known were already operating in harmony with their abilities by the time they were teenagers, but it was not like that for me.  As fascinated as I was with the ability to tap into the universal knowledge I did not believe that it was in me to do so.  I accepted that and went to the people who already had the ability if I felt the need to know where I was going in life.  I was comfortable with this for a long time until I went to a psychic in Little Rock, Arkansas who threw me a few curve balls in the course of my reading with him that made me feel less comfortable in my comfort zone.

It is annoying as hell to have a reading with someone who believes things about you that you have no previous awareness of and cannot confirm.  I had two readings with this man, whom I will call Dennis, who said much without saying enough.  This was during a time when I had a lot more trust in people than I do now.  I found this man in the classified section of the newspaper, where most of the psychics were found back then unless you heard about them through word of mouth.  I would not do this for all the tea in China, now, but at that time I figured that it was safe during daylight hours.    I wouldn’t be this trusting for anything now. Times are not what they used to be.

Dennis was very well mannered and cordial.  He lived in extremely modest circumstances in a “shotgun-style” duplex apartment that was probably built in the 1920’s. He had a very calm and light voice when he asked me to sit in a chair opposite where he was sitting on the bed.  He took out a legal pad and pen and started writing something, then, he looked up and spoke in a much deeper voice and asked me why I had come.  I was as thrown by the question as I was by the change in his voice.  When I told him that I just wanted a general reading, he didn’t act like he believed me.  He asked me if I could read myself.  I said no.  He didn’t seem to believe that either.  He paused for a minute, then he asked me if my sister could read.  That struck me as funny.  I hadn’t said that I had a sister, and she wouldn’t have  had a clue in hell about anything psychic, so I guess I laughed a bit and told him no.  He didn’t think that anything was funny either.  He asked me if I was married.  I said that I was.  He described a man to me and asked me if this was what my husband looked like.  It wasn’t.  He seemed confused, but after a few minutes of questioning he apparently decided that what- ever it was he knew, I really didn’t, so he stopped questioning me and started to tell me about a past life of mine.  I knew nothing of reincarnation at that time, but I listened with some amusement as he told me that I was quite immoral in that particular life and that I probably tended to garner a lot of resentment from people in this life.  He explained that I was meeting people whom I had known in previous lives and they resented me because in their unconscious they knew that I had probably slept with their husbands or boyfriends.  Even though I couldn’t verify that for a second it was no lie that I have always had an uncanny ability to just walk into a room and suddenly be hated.  It was easy to just think that I must have walked in to a room full of very jealous people but something about what he said rang true.  Dennis also asked me if I had any trouble swallowing.  Truly, I have had that problem for most of my life although it wasn’t enough to interfere greatly with my functioning.  Then he asked me if I was afraid of water.  Actually, I am and always have been.  He then proceeded to tell me that I had been killed in two previous lifetimes for being a “witch”.  I won’t go into any more of the details of the reading but with everything that Dennis told me I couldn’t help but feel like there was something more to what he was saying than just some random insight from the universe. I will say that even though I was intrigued by the possibility of having lived before,  It didn’t really register with me that it was true.  It sounded possible and plausible given the things that I had experienced to some degree in my life but it did not seem actually real to me so I just took it as an interesting possibility.

After the past life part of the reading, Dennis started asking me again about why I was there and if I could read.  When I repeated that I could not he wanted me to try an out of body experience.  I almost thought he was joking but when he tried to take me into a light state of hypnosis I knew he wasn’t kidding.  Once he realized that it just wasn’t going to happen for me he gave up. This particular reading went on for about 4 hours which is not the normal length of a psychic reading that I had ever had before or subsequently.   My reason for retelling this event in my life is to let you know that this man, high level as he was, was totally convinced that I was hiding the fact that I was a high level mystic myself and was just trying to test his ability against my own.  If he hadn’t been accurate on so many other things that he told me and hadn’t opened a door to the many things that lay ahead of me I would have thought he was out of his freaking mind, but basically I just took away a sense of him knowing something that I did not comprehend yet.  And it was extremely annoying, too. This sort of behavior toward me would be repeated many times after that by other psychics.

A few years later I went to a “Psychic Fair” at a new age bookstore in Memphis, Tennessee. It was an event where dozens of psychics set up tables in the store and you could get a reading for as little as $10.00.  It was my first time attending one of them and it was difficult to decide which psychic to try.  I finally settled on one who looked friendly, and I was right, he was.  The first thing that he asked me was if I was a reader.  I said that I wasn’t, although I had been using Tarot cards for my own amusement for a while.  The man, I will call him Robert, looked at me with an interesting grin and told me that if I would try a little harder I could be a better psychic than anyone in the place.  I liked the sound of that but didn’t really know what “try a little harder” actually meant.  Robert told me of a relationship that would be coming into my life that would be a pretty big deal, as far as relationships go.  I was single again by now and was happy to hear this.  He also told me that this one was going to be on a far deeper level emotionally than he had ever seen before. He said that this could even be a soul mate or twin soul reunion.  He seemed blown away by the intensity of what he was seeing.  I wasn’t exactly sure what the term “soul mates” meant at that time but I accepted that this was going to be a pretty big deal if it manifested. He also told me that I could communicate telepathically if I would acknowledge it and use it.  I didn’t know what the hell to make of that but I thought that it was fascinating.   I would probably have discarded much of what he told me after the predictions did not come true for a long time except for the fact that this was something that I would be repeatedly told in subsequent readings until I met someone who was truly going to change my life and make the prediction of my being a high level mystic come to pass; after a whole lot of mental work and difficult times.

I will save the telling of meeting the greatest mentor of my life for a later date.  I have had several mentors in my journey toward realizing my true self and the abilities that were latent in my soul just waiting to be discovered, but I have recounted two pivotal moments in my life that set the stage for becoming all that I could be and knowing how to find peace in even the most difficult of circumstances.

It is possible to connect with the universe in ways that you may not be able to imagine right now.  There is a wealth of information about you in the cosmos that is there for the taking.  It is much like doing a Google search on yourself.  The psychics that I saw were able to do a search of that infinite wisdom.  Because of that, it was possible to see all about me, past, present and future.  There were amazing abilities available to me if I allowed myself to utilize them. I might never have known about them if I hadn’t been willing to allow that search and trust in others who could see further into my true self than I was able to do.

The evolution of the human race is in extreme turmoil now and not likely to improve without major changes in the way we think and how we relate to ourselves and to others.  Without discovering our true selves and our inborn capabilities we have little hope of seeing lasting peace in our lifetimes.  The ability to understand and control your personal journey is rapidly becoming a thing that you simply must be able to do to navigate in this complicated world. It is going to be impossible to prevent yourself from falling in to the traps that others are falling into every day.  You will have no way of knowing where you are going and why you are headed in that direction without basic knowledge of your life path; where it began, what is available to you to make the best use of your particular place in it and what you can do to stop the madness of others from bringing you down to their level. If there are no mentors or support people in your life right now, know that you still can reclaim your birthright to be what you came here to be.  In this blog I will be telling you ways that can transform your life.  Make use of them.  You are always invited to go back to the past with me.  Your journey will be a fascinating one.